It is Time - A Poem

Sometimes...
the gentle morning sunlight
feels harsh and unforgiving
burying rays of warmth
deep beneath my skin

Carrying the weight of the world
on my shoulders,
My soul is exhausted
simply thinking about the prospect
of confronting my trauma and pain.

Tired of praying
for serenity to return
tired of waiting
for answers that never seem to arrive
tired of yearning
for light amidst the dark
tired of losing
my faith
tired of feeling
my face burn red
with tears of frustration and guilt.

Tired of helplessly watching my life
unravel before my very eyes
of seeing every life plan disintegrate
after tirelessly fighting for any semblance of fulfilment
any glimmer of hope
tired of the reminders
that now is not forever
that someday the shards of my life
will all meld together
and I’ll rediscover a golden beacon of happiness
once more.
Tired of carrying myself with grace and poise
yet seconds away from breaking
tired of tempering the fire within my heart
breathing calmly
even when I long
to rage and sob
until my head burns
and my heart aches.

Tired of smiling through the tears
laughing through the darkness
wishing that someone
will see the aching soul
behind my facade
but fearing being discovered.

Tired of remaining tender and soft
holding myself
with an air of gentility
but yearning to release
the battle within.

Do you feel it, too?
Have you been where I am?
Perhaps you’re there now?

My words are for you
if you find yourself exhausted
tired of smiling through the pain
forever remaining courageous
in the face of hardship
know that you are
wholeheartedly
accepted for your
desire to cry
to scream
to wonder if life will ever be bright.

I used to be ashamed
of admitting I felt weak
or sharing my truth
I still don’t feel ready
but, my Soul knows
it is time.

It is time
to share
and be vulnerable
to show others
that they are never alone.
Sometimes... I am tired of being so strong
and I hope you discover
the courage and strength
to admit that you are tired
of summoning your own strength,
too.

I hope that you discover
the bravery to reach out
and accept the support
you so deeply deserve.

Sweet soul
you are far from alone
in feeling like you’re muddling through life
summoning courage and strength
even as you fear
that your heart will shatter
and your mind will run over with worry.

I want you to trust
have hope
and belief in yourself
and your own strength
that the light
will return.

Maybe not today
or tomorrow
but one day.

And so,
until that day
hold on
be gentle
with your beautiful soul
and
give yourself
the time that you need
to heal.